MAYBE HE'S TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING ...

For several months, actually closer to a year now, this one scripture verse has repeatedly come up to me.  The first time was just before Mom and I made the decision to spend the winter with my sister and her husband.  Many times since then, one way or the other, the Lord would bring this scripture to my attention.  The most recent was just yesterday.  So I decided I would turn it into a picture and post it.  Since it is apparent to me that the Lord is trying to get through to me it behooves me to keep it before my eyes and in my thoughts. 

That is proving to be not as easy as I thought.  My thoughts these days are strange (even to me).  Someone has suggested that perhaps I should consider grief counseling.  At first I rejected the idea.  I think I know everything I want to know about grief.  But something they said 'hit' me.  'It might help you get some control back'.  Yes, that pretty much sums up the whole of my feelings right now.  I feel as if I am drifting around in outer space - there's nothing to grab hold of, no where to get a foot hold.  Like treading water or trying to walk in shifting sand.  I know that I know the Lord better than that.  Yet somehow through all of this it's almost as if I have become ... disjointed, unsettled, disconnected.

I am going to be heading back home in a few days.  I still don't have a job there though.  Hopefully the Lord will be pleased to lead me to the perfect job for me right away.  I don't know what the days ahead hold for me.  I think it will be bitter sweet at first.  Being there without Mom and all that.  But it was our home and now it is my home.

I don't know if I will be trying to get grief counseling or not.  Perhaps.  I will see.  When things sort of settle down a little.  But I do know one thing I am going to do.  I am going to do this scripture - with God's help.

Much love to you as I take one more step in my spiral upward ...

My lettering didn't show up as well as I had hoped.  I hope they are readable.